i miss you a lot. i keep thinking about our small trips to the store, taking dhiren and i out, and you playing pool with him. the everlasting memories. your smile & laugh is forever in my mind. you are my inspiration. i would do anything to sit with you, to see you smile, laugh, and talk. to catch up on everything that has happened, to joke, to smile, to laugh. to think about that one time we ate so much ice cream & cookies at disney. you inspire me, uncle john. you inspire me to try my best. to chase my dreams. to be me. to keep looking up. to keep moving forward towards better things. you are a father to me and you always will be. i know you’re in paradise right now, the purest & sweetest angel. the most kind & amazing person i’ve ever met. the book i’m writing is dedicated to you. every accomplishment & dream i work toward fulfilling is for you. as you and auntie shantie once said, “fill my book of life with colors.” i’ll always live but that. always. you’re forever in my heart & mind. i love you.